Time spent alone

I seem to spend an abundance of my time alone in Korea. Usually this would bother be, but I seem to find comfort in knowing that few around me can speak my language and the alone time becomes appreciated. I have a lot of random thoughts when I am alone. Not sure what causes it. It may be the dreamer inside, the sociologist, or sometimes, most times, the regrets I have. Today, Friday night, I sit alone in my apartment. This is a usual Friday night here. The social scene is surprisingly like Halifax, relax and do something fun on Friday night and Saturday night you throw your inhibitions to the bottle and act like a baboon. So, back to the point. I was thinking tonight. If I had a soundtrack to my life what would it be? I am not sure where this thought came from. I guess it is partly due to the fact that I have been watching a lot of movies and living in Seoul is sort of like living in a movie. The surrealism of living in a land so foreign is like a movie. You think "that would never happen", but it is. Eventhough it is happening it doesn't really consciously enter your mind that it is happening.
I also read a note on facebook today that my friend posted. "In 2007" it was called. She made a list of all the things that happened in 2007. I realized that a lot has happened in 2007. The biggest event was moving to Seoul....I think that song of the soundtrack would be "Taking The Long Way Around" by the Dixie Chicks. It seems that everybody at home is settling down, but I am taking the long way around.
Another momentus moment of my 2007 was this past summer. Summer is always a great time for me. The sun is shining, I am happy and life seems to take a whole new meaning in the summer. Nothing matters in the summer, but everything matters at the same time. I guess my most fortunate event of Summer 2007 was meeting Laura and Kyle. It was strange how quickly we became friends. I find it even more strange how quickly I got attached to these two people. It was nice to recognize the genuity in these two people and get on the save wavelength and ride it out for a few months, and hopefully for years to come. Laura chose this song for the soundtrack "Parkdale" by Metric. Not so much the words, but the feeling of the song. It suits.
I am realizing how boring this post must be as it has nothing to do with an Asisan Adventure, but I think this year will be one with a lot of reflections and digestion of things that aren't in Asia. That will be one of the largest adventures.
I look at my blank walls and realize that this world is so small. Not in a Disney sense, but really, think about it. Where do you have friends living now? For me...Canada, USA, France, Korea, Japan, Taiwan, Colombia, Australia....that is a pretty large spread. Why do we leave our homelands? It is to seek irregularity? We are socialized that everybody is different and unique. Is that true? I think, and this is especially true for me, when you relize that you are like everybody else you seek out something that will make you different from your surroundings. I came to Korea. That makes me different from the majority of people from home. But now that I am in Korea with thousands of English speaking people from around the world...is it really that different? "Ordinary People" John Legend? Maybe.
I feel that some of us embrace regularity because it is safe. Some of us seek change because it isn't safe. I seek change because I have no idea what else to do. Sure, I can stay home and work and 11$ hour job, and get nowhere financially. I can see the world, but when I get home all I've done is see things. What is it all worth? I have no idea. What choices should a person make? "Do what makes you happy".....tried that..not sure if I am happy still. I am not feeling the same as I was at home...is that happy? As far as I know...yes...I could call this happy.
This entry has gotten a little too emo for my liking. I just have a lot of things racing through my mind while I am alone....would'a could'a should'a? Pretty much.